ESC

It's been a semester. Time really flies when all you do is yearn for tomorrow to come. I dread that habit but sometimes i just wish that time will pass and everything will be okay again. Many things have changed. I have grown way beyond what i believed. I've been hurt, been happy, been hopeful and hopeless. I lost a friend, lost a family member and now i have a new nephew. People moved on.. kids growing up, closest friend going overseas, closest cousin gave birth, relatives getting better jobs, people having new dreams..hey, that's life.

Any regrets so far? Of course. I wish i had been more optimistic, more out there, grasping whatever i can. People i met made me believe differently. They do drugs.......you name it, marijuana, ice, grass, ecstasy and acid. They party from Wednesdays to Saturdays. One spent 30,000 AUD on clubbing alone in a month... but i realized i am nobody to judge. Then there are those who devote themselves to god.Weekends at church..great family dinners.They are happy. That's all that matters.

Ive seen the most beautiful autumn, experienced it.. and of course the first winter! I will experience snow soon, with people i love, i hope.

In studies, i may not be the best but i know that i've done my best. I'll just leave the door open and let myself be vulnerable to new experiences this holidays. AND YES, ITS THE HOLIDAYS!!! Cheers!

Winter Blues

Pause.

Hopeless romantic

I am a hopeless romantic. Love is such a beautiful thing. Love heals fear, pain, loneliness and it just makes you feel whole again. Before, i wasn't a believer in the marriage institution. Believe me, love changes perception. The feeling of wanting to be bonded to the love of your life forever. To tell him " yes, I'm yours". It isn't just papers, it is a spiritual engagement. Love is a dedication of life and soul. A beauty in itself.

To let him kiss your forehead when he sees you

To hold hands while staring into each other's eyes

To watch the sunrise and plan the future together

To dance with him to your favorite love song on your wedding day

Him holding you tight, you feeling beautiful

To let yourself melt in his arms

To hear the precious whisper "i love you"

To make love endlessly

To make the promise to be together for eternity

Sounds perfect and i let myself believe. Why not give your all when he may be taken away from you? Why not kiss him and remind him of how much you love him? Why not have candlelight dinners? Why not renew your vows on every wedding anniversary?

The most beautiful way of describing the cycle of love i've heard this far is "...when there is love,life begins.Over and over again.."

The naked skies

Life's little pleasures...

If i were given the chance to change a thing in the past 19 years, i would live to the fullest each and everyday. When was the last time you smiled at a stranger? When was the last time you danced in the kitchen? When was the last time you slept under the stars?
Everyday is worth a memory. Every second is worth a smile.

Life is nothing but beautiful when you have the choice to

have your lunch by the sea

then have your sushi box in the city at night...

and get lost after that.

Vineyard Creek, Rydalmere

Autumn leaves beneath my feet

Trees curl up to face the bitter winter

The seagull rushed to reside

The morning dew froze on my skin

Grand Pacific Drive

"An old train powered by steam, hustling through neighbourhoods across seas, forests and rivers. Taking a sip of hot tea, i stare at the horizon. Inhaling, i let my eyes feast on what is ahead..." It is a dream of mine to travel to rural areas where farms are still green, where people smile when rain falls, where children laugh when being chased by puppies, where people love food and most importantly life itself. Peru perhaps?

I have always thought if i were to have only one of the five senses, i will always choose to have sight.